Anxiety or Anger whats the difference?

^ my head ^

I am blessed person.

So why do I feel so selfish and unhappy?

My head is a terrible thing sometimes..

"Life is not easy and I cannot please everyone"

better written:

"Life is easy if you try to please only yourself"

or

"Life is meaningless if you try to please only yourself"

What is my life?  What is my purpose? What makes me happy?

What will I do to fight for life? What will I do to fight for a life I want?

Being taken advantage of..  How do I know when it's happening?

Follow the Golden Rule..

easy to desire... difficult to continue when your by yourself.

Support.

I need Support.

I want to be supportive as well.

Talking to myself in my blog is only somewhat helpful..

Now time to Open Photoshop and see what comes out of me...

I'm doing a good job keeping anger at bay while worry washes up on shore in droves... it's silly to be feeling either.

People are silly creations))

TLW

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Isaac's Live Lip-Dub Proposal - I really enjoyed this!

Original

Creative

Meaningful

I enjoy this type of news))

youtube: These are no tears... it... it's just my manliness leaving through my eyes.

This video had me laughing and crying at the same time..

Wonderful feelings, I wish them the best.

misss my milllie

TLW

Finally Finished!!! Matthew West - Kinetic Typography Project

It was a grueling task I realized after 4 hours of work and only about 20 seconds into the song... haha..
Still I had support throughout and I am happy with how my first After Effects Typography project worked out.
I just thought I would post it about my blogs so that it could get its face value)) :P i worked hard!!

Thank you for everyone who gives me support!!

TLW

Reminder to Self! Random Post

Currently I am working on  Kinetic Typography with Matthew West's Song - "More"

so far I am about 1 minute and 25 seconds into the song and have a little over 2 minutes left to animate!

I just had a few things to remind myself to Animate after this:

1. Bible Verse's
2. Personal Poem's
3. Letter/Message/Story to KK
4. cool audio fruit loop waves.. with kinetic type
5. lastly old wav (takin bath)

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finding resources, in hopes to get a CELTA

Several weeks ago I applied for and was accepted to The Teaching House in Chicago, IL. This was in order to get a CELTA certificate that can be used for jobs all over the world in order to teach English to adults!

Currently I do not have enough money to actually go to this school. Sometimes I do things without having all things in alignment.. more or less hoping or trusting that a path will be given to me.

As I said I do not have a way to pay for this course and I do not know if it will become a reality at this point.

I have a widget that I have made but in my experience things like this go largely unnoticed.

oh money.. silly concept

yet it controls our lives..

Not for long.

I have hope for the future, even if I am not meant to take this class at this exact time.

Still I have to try everything and keep faith. I hope that things will work out.

Possibly time to make a quick youtube video explaining my situation, maybe actually do it!

I have a job interview this Tuesday!  

I need to thank God for the blessings that I do have and take care of what I can.

All I really want is to be educated, to be with my love, Kristina, my fiance, to have the tools that are necessary in order to provide for the family I wish to have. I trust that God will be with me and help will come in compliance with his plan.

Oh lord I am willing, please show me the way.

TLW

Ever feel like Meh? :p

Sometimes we just feel depressed. Generally because there is a situation involving a loved one.
It does not mean that we are depressed all the time. It just means that we have feelings.

Nobody wants to be held back by there past mistakes. It is natural to be stupid and then to become smart.

It is quiet opposite to expect    it the other  way around. I am a better person today that  I was yesterday.

That is the Goal.

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Writing, i miss you...

Many times I feel like I have good ideas, but instead of actually doing what it is I'm thinking, I just try to remember the idea. How smart is that?

I do not think it is very smart at all.

I see myself as someone who can do a lot.

But I do not see my actions matching up to my potential.

It's getting to the point that I can no longer bare it and something needs to change!

Like most guy's in there early 20's I spend a lot of times doing things that "I" want to do. It's sad to say, but as mature as I think I am, I realize that left to my own devices I can fall off course.
I'd like to change these bad characteristics about myself before it gets worse.. before I am even older and wishing I had been different.

I do not like knowing how many hours I have spent on games rather than doing helpful or productive things.. rather than doing something for, or spending time with, loved ones..

Currently my heart feels like it wants to explode..

I wish I were a better writer so that I could express myself fully, but I'll get out what I need to get out.

I have to make Goals, and I need to keep up with them

I need to make them public so that I cannot hide from them

I need support, my heart is tender although it is strong, I am still growing and I have my tough days like all

~God is Watching me I need Not to Forget this Truth~
Everyday, Every Moment, and Always

• Clean up
• Get rid of the excess
• Be the man that your preach others to be
• Love with all of your heart
• Be humble
• Check yourself

The best way to live happily and genuinely, is to be doing things correctly, and righteously.

I know that all things done in dark will eventually be seen by others in the light. 

Of course there is a point.

I want to be a good Husband.

Rather than try to BS myself through life, I want to help people and love my family.

I seem to fail quite regularly, but I hope that I can learn to one day succeed in this endeavor. 

:sigh::

miss you

TLW